So today was the day of my first mammogram.
It wasn’t so bad… if you don’t mind your breasts being squashed to pancakes. I’m STILL sore! The nice lady tells you, “It won’t be that bad, it isn’t as bad as people say.”
Well, I guess it wasn’t as bad as it could have been. The nice lady brought me into a small room to change out of my clothes and into a robe. She then led me to a room with a machine that could only have been created by a man… one who hates women. She put a sticker with a tiny ball in it on each nipple, so the tech reading the film would know where the nipple was. She then proceeded to handle my breasts as though they were pieces of meat.
She takes one breast and puts it on the cold metal platen, pulls until my ribs are rubbing against the front of the machine, arranges the breast so it evenly “pools” on the platen then steps on this toggle switch on the floor. A clear plastic plate then lowers onto the top of my breast, flattening it to an uncomfortable but not excruciating level. She then uses a hand crank to lower the clear plastic further. As I watch my breast expand to ungodly lengths before me, I realize I am now unable to breathe in a comfortable manner. The “nice” lady then steps behind a plastic window, says, “Don’t breathe!” Then after 5 seconds releases the contraption and my breast. As I stand there cradling my poor squished breast, she grabs the other breast and we start all over again.
When we’re finished she says, “See that wasn’t so bad.” And I agree. It wasn’t nearly as bad as I had anticipated. Though it wasn’t much fun, and my breasts were a little less buoyant than they were 10 minutes ago when I came in, it really wasn’t as bad as I had feared.
“Good,” says the evil woman, “now we take the image from the side.” The side?!?! Yes, we do it all over again, this time with each breast squashed from the side. More man-handling of my breasts, pushing them into place between the platens. This time when she steps on the toggle on the floor, there is no need to flatten further with the hand crank, my breast WILL NOT FLATTEN FURTHER!!! As all thought of breathing left my body and thoughts only of how to flee this torture chamber with my breast still attached raced through my pain filled brain, “Don’t breathe,” 5, 4, 3, 2, 1… release. I huddle over my pounding and audibly wimpering breast only to be grabbed by the other breast, which was climbing over my shoulder to avoid the same fate as her sister. Unfortunately the breast is caught and goes through the same steps as its twin. “Ma’am, you need to stop clutching the other breast, you’re pulling on the breast I’m taking the image of now.” 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. Sweet release.
What she neglected to tell me was, as everyone is different, some women find the top/bottom flattening more painful while other women (my camp) find the side to side flattening more painful. C’est la vie.
Though I bitch, and though I wish the tech had explained it was probably going to be painful the second set of “squishings”, I look at it this way, I have just taken a step to save myself from the horrors of breast cancer. And if that means I have to have sore breasts for a day or two then so be it. Yes, I will do it again, and yes, I will suggest to every one of my female relatives, friends, acquaintances, anyone who will listen to me… THIS IS WORTH IT! Compared to the pain, physical and emotional, of breast cancer, early detection and the discomfort that goes with it are worth it in the end.
So listen up people… get your boobies squished as often as your doctor dictates. I want you around as long as possible.
April 9th, 2008 by Colleen | No Comments »